Don't Worry Now!

When you feel like you are all alone
Just like your best friend up and gone
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
I've been there yeah, I know how it feels
To wonder if love is even real
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
It's gonna be ok
                   ~Britt Nicole

I sang this chorus to my daughter the other day as I held her like a baby and she sobbed over some feelings she was having about her father. I suspect there will be many chances to repeat this memory.

First post of 2010

Whether you say "Two Thousand and ten" or "twenty-ten", 2010 is here!  Can you believe we are 3 weeks into it today?  Wow, where has the time gone?  Well, I actually know the answer to this for me.  I teach in two buildings and we are just about done with finals.  I have also started a new Master's class and it is kicking me in the rearend REALLY HARD!  This class is a research class, so that means LOTS of writing; something I really dislike.

So for the next 8 months there is no "New Year's Resolutions" or great bible studies for me, although I am excited to lead a "Secret Keeper Girl" bible study for mom's and daughter's this fall.  But for now, it is just me and my classes.  I am half way there.  I am so thankful these classes are only 6 weeks long.  By week 5 I really start to drag and half the time end up skipping the assignment.  I really need to stop this, so I guess that will be my goal for 2010...

My heart has been filled with love for those who are grieving.  I know too many people in the last few months who have lost beloved family members.  My family has been touched by those who are grieving and we want those families to know we love them, pray for them daily, and are thankful all of them will have the opportunity to spend eternity with them.  One mom in particular I pray every morning she will have the strength to get up for the day.  That's it, but I know it is the first hard decision she makes EVERY day.

I have learned to be more thankful and accept imperfection.  I am thankful I have everything in my life.  I don't like everything, but I am learning to be content with the things that God provides.  After all, he didn't ASK my opinion.

Don't forget to go over to Rachel's Writings today and wish Rachel a Happy Birthday!  I hope all of you have a wonderful rest of January.  I am sure I won't be posting anytime soon.  See you in February...

My Husband and Sarah Palin

Sarah Palin has family that lives in Richland, so she is here for the Thansgiving Break.  Her aunt is a frequent customer of the Spudnut Shop where my husband, Kevin works.  There were rumors that she would be coming into the shop and sure enough about an hour ago she did.  Kevin was so excited!  Here is the proof.

We have known about Sarah as a person longer than she has been in the national eye.  There is a very moving letter that she and her husband wrote to tell extended family about Trig and how he has Down's Syndrome, but is a gift from God.  My husband is a big fan.  We are going to the book signing tomorrow too!

update

The kids made it to Boise around 1am last night.  I hope they have a time filled with precious memories.  Jessa is getting to go to Auntie Erin's Life Skills class at a local elementary school tomorrow.  She is so excited!  At this point in her life she is planning to be a Life Skills Teacher when she grows up.  I love a good goal...

Life in 2 houses

Two hours ago I dropped my children off at their dad's.  They are going out of town with him this year to (one of my best friend's house) Boise to celebrate Thanksgiving.  They will be gone for four nights and over Thanksgiving.  Normally,  I do okay with dropping them off, but this time it was everything I could do, not to go back in that house and take my children home!  Something just didn't feel right.  I tried all the way home to get my emotions in check.  I even stayed in the van for a little while longer when I got in the drive way.  Michael W. Smith was singing, "You are holy", so I raised my hands and sang along.

I came in the house and I knew I needed to make myself something to eat, but I felt like anything that I ate would end up coming back up later.  I decided on an almond butter and jelly sandwich and chips and salsa.  Kevin came in the kitchen to chat with me and I just kept thinking, "Keep it together".  Finally, Kevin said, "Are you okay?".  And ladies, you would be so proud of me...I said "NO I AM NOT".  I didn't even try to fake it. Let the tears flow!

So two hours later, I think I am back to normal.  They are on the road and Jason said he would text me when they got there.  I probably won't sleep until they get there.  That's okay though because I need to finish my master's assignment that is due at midnight!

This is the one part about being divorced that I hate.  Most thanksgivings the kids spent it with Jason, but this is the first time it has been out of town.  I am really happy they are going to see "Uncle Mike and Auntie Erin".  I just can't shake this awful feeling that it is mistake.  Please keep my family in your prayers this week.  Pray that I am just being "one of those mom's".

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.  I for you, know I have so much to be thankful for!